is wonder...

let me ask: is wonder the most pure form of worship?
are we deceiving ourselves to think that we can find and appease God with logic?

i continue to seriously doubt that modern science is a sufficiently pure form of inquiry into the unknown. the scientific method is sound enough, but its application seems to me like it is riddled with hypocrisy.

people tend to conclude before they observe. is this inherent? can we really ask philosophical questions, and trust ourselves not to jump to emotionally convenient conclusions?

it seems to me that beyond the simplicity of staring in wonder, all sciences are sociologically based and physically limited. and then there's theology - all science is by necessity theologically oriented. the scientist's belief in a god or absence of one will influence his or her conclusion. maybe observation can be pure, but reason is inherently tainted.

the struggle to defend rationalism is a diseased and dying pursuit. so sorry, dear reader, but you can't be a rationalist. this is because you're human. we mortals have emotions and potentially erroneous prejudgements - we are the human error in our own cosmologies.

maybe on my own i will to trick myself into thinking i can be a rationalist. i can't be trusted. that's why i'm so glad that it's not me i'm trusting in to find truth; it's God. faith is my double-blind study of invisible things. the intervention of grace is not a theology based on human need, but rather a convenient reality - a floating parachute at mile 13 of our philosophical free-fall. i hope.

shakespeare accidentally left this out.. i had to sharpie it in.

p.s. ria is writing a wonderful song. you can hear it on the orange tree


  1. I really like your point that it's hard, maybe impossible, to ask philosophical questions without jumping to "emotionally convenient conclusions".

    It reminded me of something:

    "It is a capital mistake to theorize before one has data. Insensibly one begins to twist facts to suit theories, instead of theories to suit facts."
    —Sherlock Holmes (from A Scandal in Bohemia)

    But Holmes is a fictional character, after all, so that's why I like the conclusion you make, which may be more suitable to real life: "i can't be trusted. that's why i'm so glad that it's not me i'm trusting in to find truth; it's God."

  2. @andrew: I like that Sherlock Holmes quote.. As you can see, I haven't settled on a solid position for these head/heart, hope/truth questions. Maybe I want to go as far as i should with reason, and depend on God for help with the rest. How far is that?

  3. Wow! You have some truly deep thoughts and great analogies here. i love reading what you are thinking about.
    I agree. "We are the human error in our own cosmologies..." and I really like your free-fall simile!

  4. @mom: thanks very much : )