flings and skydiving

i may or may not be inventing a mental shortlist of things i shouldn't do to ease numbness and boredom.



items also considered involve shampooing my coffee-maker, googling "taco bell dog" and partaking in boxing matches with the wall(s).

but maybe i should take a lesson from jerry and focus on eating more fish.

a thought for today: what about bob?

i'm not sure i follow

i heard today (and most days) that god was on the move. i'm not sure i follow...

there's some problems that i have with the concept of god:

1. i truly can't reconcile the bible to reality (vice versa???)
there are problems that i've run into, like "whatever things you ask for in prayer you will receive" [link], etc

2. i truly also can't reconcile the bible to itself.
"love your neighbor as yourself." & "if someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also" [link]

vs.

"'i have delivered him and all his people and his land into your hand'... and we utterly destroyed them... utterly destroying the men, women, and children of every city." [link]
&
"and the lord listened to the voice of israel and delivered up the canaanites, and they utterly destroyed them and their cities." [link]
&
"and the lord our god delivered him over to us; so we defeated him, his sons, and all his people. we took all his cities at that time, and we utterly destroyed the men, women, and little ones of every city; we left none remaining. we took only the livestock as plunder for ourselves, with the spoil of the cities which we took." [link]

+


"you shall not take vengeance" [link]
vs.
"take vengeance" [link]

^^
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3. currently having trouble connecting the biblical writings with many previous "moves of god."
mm, mmm, mhmm

also:
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what is normalcy?

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as of late, i've been hashing out some things that have to do with life. i have stir-fry brains in a medium-hot pan, simmering...

there was a time when i would do most anything for a cigarette... and those things are deadly. what gives?

there was a song once that, when i listened to it, made me feel all dark and powerful. then i got into a pretty intense nde at sixty miles an hour while listening to it. i was a passenger.

the next day the driver got into a real car accident while listening to it. as far as i can tell, neither of these were this individual's fault.

i have, multiple times, been creeped out by the (improv) music i was playing.

right now there are multiple people in my yard up to their chests in mud, breathing hard and chatting away in spanish while they destroy the root system of the nearest tree.

i'll pose the question again: what is normalcy?

on politics

i have long been considering the merits of becoming an angry political blogger, someone who really gives it to the world - keyboard style. this post just might just be my entrance into the realm of kids that have virtually no frame of reference and absolute loads of passionate ramblings.
let me explain: once in along while i sit down in front of a television and postulate and cogitate about the political issues that are raging that day. i inevitably end up watching news and/or political and current events commentary and starting caring about some international crisis or the secret lives of politicians and sports stars. this lasts for about three days, and then i return to a a gripping and permeating apathy.
apathetically speaking, i do very well not to give a single care to the organised world outside my apartment. i can live without the worries and responsibilities that are imposed by relating to social groupings in an official capacity... and i have to wonder if i really gain anything from engaging in political endeavours. in my experience, more change is effected through slow-pace day-to-day relationships.